i spent my life trying to heal from the things that werent my fault

The Weight of Unburdened Shoulders: A Journey of Self-Forgiveness

For years, I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders, convinced that the scars etched upon my soul were my fault. I spent countless hours dissecting every interaction, every misstep, every moment of pain, searching for the flaw within myself that had led to the storm raging inside. I blamed myself for the broken promises, the hurtful words, the shattered dreams. I believed that if I could just be better, stronger, more deserving, the pain would finally subside.

But the truth is, some wounds are inflicted by forces beyond our control. Some storms are brewed in the skies of others' choices, their actions, their indifference. And yet, we, the victims, often find ourselves drowning in the aftermath, desperately trying to swim to shore while the currents of guilt and self-blame pull us under.

The journey of healing from the things that weren't my fault was a long and arduous one. It was a journey of self-discovery, of peeling back layers of self-imposed blame and revealing the truth beneath. It was a journey of learning to forgive myself, to understand that I was not responsible for the actions of others, for the choices they made, for the pain they inflicted.

It was a journey of recognizing that my worth was not defined by the scars I carried, but by the strength I found within myself to rise above them. It was a journey of embracing the power of self-compassion, of understanding that I was not alone in my struggle, that countless others had walked this path before me.

It was a journey of learning to let go, to release the burden of blame and allow myself to heal. It was a journey of finding solace in the knowledge that I was worthy of love, of happiness, of peace, regardless of the past.

This journey is not a destination, but a continuous process. It is a journey of constant self-reflection, of challenging the narratives we tell ourselves, of choosing to believe in our own inherent worth. It is a journey of learning to love ourselves, flaws and all, and to extend that same compassion to others.

It is a journey of understanding that healing is not about erasing the past, but about learning to live with it, to find meaning in the scars, to use them as a reminder of our resilience, our strength, our ability to rise above.

It is a journey of reclaiming our power, of recognizing that we are not defined by the things that happened to us, but by how we choose to respond to them. It is a journey of embracing the truth that we are worthy, we are strong, and we are capable of healing, even from the things that weren't our fault.